Spacedmonkey

I woke up today to discover a fly in my room. A simple plain little thing that I would normally play no notice to but for some reason it made me think. This poor fly was repeatly flying into the window pane trying to espace. I could not help but feel like that fly sometimes. That poor fly repeating beating it’s head trying hard to espace when it is impossible to get out. Feeling trapped in the path in life and not achiving my goal was something that happened to me in the first year of uni. However, what I admired about the fly was that it never gave up, it continued to hit it’s head and would repeat itself until it died. To it, not to keep trying is to die. I opened the window and freed the poor fly. I think that kind of drive is something that I should have, to be strong and not to give, even if it means I have to hit my head a couple of times.

As I long hair Uni student, this is a question that I ask myself all the time. As a student, you move around a lot and it is not unusual to change addresses three or more times. Most students still move home to their parents home for Summer and Christmas. It can be hard for people that are all over the place to feel at home. I have had this problem. Moving from home into uni halls of resistance was hard but not as hard as moving home. Returning from uni to what used to be home is one of the oddest feelings of my time. You walk around feeling like this is no longer home, like you have out grown the place. It feels really bad as you remember having a good times in this place.

HOME
a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.

As a young man, I know that I am not really going to have a stable home. It is a case of changing my state of mind. Instead of thinking that home is where all my stuff is, it is where I lay my head. With this new state of mind, it comes a feeling on home sickness. Not having a true home means that your home sick even when your in your house. It is all just weird…

This is a picture of everything that I carry around in pockets and on my person on an noraml day. It is really shocking how much stuff I need to get by from day to day. In this picture there is from left to right:

• Wallet (with Money and credit card)
• British passport Nokia
• N73 mobile phone
• National rail card
• Key (with small pen knife and bottle openner)
• Creative Zen Vision:M
• Watch

I am shocked that it all fits in my pockets and my person. Everything that I have with me has it’s use. It will be interested to do this again in 5, 10 and 15 years time see how much I carry changes. I think that in the future I will only carry a phone with built-in mp3 instead of having two devices. Will I have car keys or sweets for my children. This picture remids me of what my life is really from day to day. This picture was taken for the The Items We Carry Flickr group pool.

15 things I wished I had known BEFORE I went to University

• That it didn’t matter how late my first lecture was, I’d still sleep through it.
• That I could change so much and barely realize it.
• That you can love a lot of people in a lot of different ways.
• No matter how ‘cool’ you were in school, no one here cares.
• That if you wear polyester everyone will ask why you are so dressed up.
• That every clock on campus shows a different time.
• That if you got good a-levels, so what? It doesn’t matter here.
• That I would go to a party the night before an exam or essay due-date.
• That you can know everything and fail a test or know nothing and ace a test.
• That I could get used to almost anything found out about my friends.
• That most of my education would be obtained outside of lectures.
• That friendship is more than getting drunk together.
• That Sunday is a figment of the world’s imagination.
• That Psychology is really Biology, that Biology is really Chemistry, that Chemistry is really Physics and that Physics is really Maths.
• That it’s possible to be alone even when you are surrounded by friends.